It's my fifth Christmas in Santa Barbara this year. Amazing how fast time passes and the beginning of a new year is knocking at the door again.
2016 will be somewhat of a crossroads for me. Hopefully in January I will know if my Green Card application is approved or not.
That means, I might be back in Germany this coming June!
It's so crazy to even think about that possibility. It rises both, excitement but also sadness, in my heart and emotions.
After being in California for more than 4 years, Santa Barbara has become quite my home.
There's not a day that passes that I am not touched nor amazed at the view of the mountains that are so close and seem to have been painted in the background of this town. The ocean holds its own magic of course, and every time I actually walk out onto the pier I cannot believe that I LIVE in a place, where other people spend their vacation.
My life has changed. I've been through some personal ups and downs while fighting away panic attacks and anxieties, and got to know God as my "Jehova Rapha", God who heals.
I am becoming a runner, which is quite unusual for me, cause I would always reply to the questions "do you workout?" with a witty "I am a musician.". (But, let's be honest, the nice weather, the scenery, and the fact that half of SBs population runs - at least that's what if feels like - make it easy to get out there early in the morning.)
My ministry has changed as well. I mean, I am still a worship leader and songwriter, and that calling will probably always be the most dominant one in my life.
But I've become more of a musician. Working with Calvary Chapel has drawn me back to playing electric guitar for the worship band. And I also picked up Bass, which I actually LOVE playing, cause it's challenging me on a different level. It's making be a better musician.
I've also been venturing out into more administrative gifts, which I've always known I've had. I like organizing and taking "stuff" off of the shoulder of the pastors is a highly underestimated ability. I love making people happy and helping them thrive in what they need to do.
Particularly working alongside our worship leader, Joseph, has been great.
So, it's somewhat a funny thing to think about that maybe God might call me back to Europe to be a worship and band leader full time. But I am open to anything, like I guess I have always been in my journey with the Lord. The main point is, we need and need to want to be wherever God wants us to be.
It is never so much a matter of what we do as much as it is how we do it, meaning with the right attitude of our heart. God has been working a lot on mine these last years. I can honestly say, so far it has probably been the most fruitful time in my life.
So, please keep me in your prayers as the Lord is arranging the near and far future of my life and ministry.
Thank you so much and Merry Christmas and a Very Happy New Year!